Underconstruction

So, my first few days here have been nothing short of a whirlwind.  I’ve gotten lost and walked in circles for what seemed like an eternity. I’ve met some crazy weird people, seen some amazing things… things I only thought happened in the movies.  Saw some of the places I’d longed to go since I was little, and realized… I could call this place home.  Aside from missing my friends, New York is nothing short of incredible.  I was skeptical of loving  it here as much as I love London, but I have to say it sure is giving London a run for its money.  New York has everything from the fast paced city life, to the relaxed laid back music atmosphere of nashville, and it even has quite a bit of native England-ers walking around it.  Now, I do have to say that I am pretending to be all brave and fearless, but I am super nervous about the few days that lie ahead.  No matter where you are first days are nerve racking, but when you add you are in probably one of the worlds most competitive places to the mix it becomes almost terrifying.  I’ve never worked in an office as big, or as prestigious as the two that I am working in this fall. I am praying I don’t mess things up… or at least too much.  But aside from that things are incredible.  Shelby ( my roommate) and I went to a roof top bar (at hotel indigo a shout out to home!) and realized how lucky we were and how beautiful the city really is.  We started talking and agreed that New York is one of the worlds most romantic cities.  Not in the sense like it is where lovers go or people go to fall in love, but that it is one of the easiest cities to fall in love with.  A place to feel completely satisfied, and overwhelmed with.  I have to say this is the most accurate description I’ve ever heard of the city.  It is beautiful and inspiring.  I can’t wait to see what these next months have in store.  So, New York I hope you’re ready… because I sure as heck am.

Until next time.

howdoiputthisgently:

EXPECTATION:

REALITY:

Loss of control 

Spirals downward

Climbing the hill upward

It’s hard to face the things we fight so hard

It’s hard not to let the emotions of it all get in the way

But some times surrender is the only option we have

So forgive me if I am scared, forgive me if I stumble

But I have a few words I just really have to let out, even at a mumble.

I’ll never get over how music can just take you away. It takes you away from fear, pain, worry, heartache, and put you in a place of ecstasy.  Sometimes I just need an hour or two to recharge to face the world outside. 

Chaos it controls my mind. Some love the feel of the wind, others like the sand between their toes, but chaos is what my heart knows. Change, and laughter, undoubted love, unrelinquished anger the rush of falling, the safety of not knowing. Chaos drives this heart, it makes these feet move, and gives these breaths a purpose. Chaos rules the world, and if you let it, it can be fun. Chaos, oh the damage that can be done. 

I am a dreamer.

and a lover.

A cynic.

and romantic.

I am in need of some inspiration.

These dreams, well they’ve started to run dry.

Business moves.

Music touches.

I need something that gives that rush.