It’s back. Inspired and renewed.
Loss of control
Spirals downward
Climbing the hill upward
It’s hard to face the things we fight so hard
It’s hard not to let the emotions of it all get in the way
But some times surrender is the only option we have
So forgive me if I am scared, forgive me if I stumble
But I have a few words I just really have to let out, even at a mumble.
I’ll never get over how music can just take you away. It takes you away from fear, pain, worry, heartache, and put you in a place of ecstasy. Sometimes I just need an hour or two to recharge to face the world outside.
Chaos it controls my mind. Some love the feel of the wind, others like the sand between their toes, but chaos is what my heart knows. Change, and laughter, undoubted love, unrelinquished anger the rush of falling, the safety of not knowing. Chaos drives this heart, it makes these feet move, and gives these breaths a purpose. Chaos rules the world, and if you let it, it can be fun. Chaos, oh the damage that can be done.
(via alifeinpearls)
I believe in love and lust and sex and romance. I don’t want everything to add up to some perfect equation. I want mess and chaos. I want someone to go crazy out of his mind for me. I want to feel passion and heat and sweat and madess and I want Valentines and Cupids and all the rest of that crap. I want it all.
I am a dreamer.
and a lover.
A cynic.
and romantic.
I am in need of some inspiration.
These dreams, well they’ve started to run dry.
Business moves.
Music touches.
I need something that gives that rush.
If you’re going to use such strong words, then give me some credit. You can’t be the one to call all the shots and pretend your the only one whose world falls apart. You are such a bitch sometimes you think you are the only one who hurts the only one who can’t trust. I hate to break it to you sweetheart, but you’re not the only one, not the first and won’t be the last. So pull yourself together and stop acting like you know the other shoe is about to drop. Let me think, when you call on me next lets see how I react. I won’t be gracious, and I sure won’t be kind. You’ve taken advantage of my kindness, and my love so back off.
I keep trying to fight it, this good girl side I have to me, but I know deep down I just can’t hide it. It’s what I’m meant to be. I won’t ever loose sight of what I have and what there is. I cannot hide your love any more I think I’m finally beginning to see what it is exactly your presence means to me. I know now that you mean more than anything on this earth and now I must start to burry the me that should never be. I make mistakes, I say the wrong things, I even love the wrong people, but in the end I know you forgive and you love all and in you’re grace I’m found safe sound, happy and content.
